‘The Bachelor’ alum Ben Higgins: My religion will get me via my breakdown
Ben admitted earlier this month he had skilled a “breakdown” over his lack of inspiration and imaginative and prescient for his future, which resulted in him returning to his Indiana hometown to do some soul-searching and depend on household to get him via “troublesome occasions.”
Ben, who starred on The Bachelor‘s twentieth season in 2016, has been looking for his method in life as a former — and basically washed-up, for lack of a greater time period — actuality TV star.
Ben had informed The Bachelorette alum Trista Rehn on her podcast that he is involved about his legacy, however he shared with The Salvation Military in a video interview how he is now turning to God for assist.
“I imagine Jesus’ reality. After I cry out to Jesus, within the moments I want Jesus probably the most, God has at all times proven up, and never solely that, in my greatest moments of doubt,” Ben informed The Salvation Military Midland Division.
“The purpose to me that at all times is sensible is Jesus gave his one clearest commandment: Love your God and love your neighbor. By means of my life, generally that is the one [thing] that is sensible or matches. If I try this effectively, I additionally perceive there’s a God that loves, life appears to click on.”
Ben additionally recalled having an dependancy to painkillers that started when he was a teen and fighting loneliness in his memoir, Alone in Plain Sight, which hit cabinets in February.
Ben went from having social nervousness to being The Bachelor star, and now he claims to be in a transitional section the place consideration from the general public — which he used to seek out satisfying — is not gratifying or fulfilling.
“That spotlight, one, was unwarranted. Two, it felt actually good. Then over time, the eye began to really feel much less good personally as a result of it felt very egocentric,” Ben defined.
“I did not actually really feel prefer it was doing so much for me and my neighborhood round me. I did not really feel it was doing something for me personally aside from to make myself really feel higher. So, I began to slide again into a spot of feeling lonely.”
Ben acknowledged it wasn’t straightforward to appreciate that individuals had been solely giving him consideration due to his time on a actuality TV present.
“That truthfully felt prefer it was diminishing a variety of my life and a variety of issues I used to be pursuing as a result of I used to be getting consideration for being on a present,” Ben shared.
“Now, I am sitting in a spot the place I am in a transition section. I am nonetheless there — I do not need to inform you I am not — the place I am seeking to see what does life appear like, possibly when the eye wanes and even when it continues, with all these components and what’s my position in that as an individual.”
Ben, nevertheless, positively has a life milestone to sit up for. He and his fiancee, Jessica Clark, are set to wed in November 2021.
“Jessica is any person who desperately needs to like individuals effectively, love God effectively and, consequently, love me effectively,” Ben mentioned within the interview.
“She’s not solely my greatest fan however greatest supporter and most wholesome critic. I imagine it will final a lifetime as a result of she makes me a greater man. I hope she would say this, I do not need to converse for her on this. She makes me a greater man.”
Ben mentioned Jessica additionally makes his life “extra thrilling,” including, “I used to be apprehensive about that as I settled down. That life was, impulsively, going to get much less thrilling. It is accomplished every little thing within the reverse method.”
After competing for Kaitlyn’s coronary heart on The Bachelorette’s eleventh season, Ben starred on The Bachelor and proposed marriage to his winner, Lauren Bushnell, through the Season 20 finale that aired in March 2016.
As soon as Ben’s The Bachelor season wrapped, he and Lauren starred on a Bachelor spinoff referred to as Ben & Lauren: Fortunately Ever After? on Freeform. The pair, nevertheless, cut up not lengthy after in Could 2017.
Following his breakup with Lauren, Ben additionally appeared on The Bachelor: Winter Video games, which aired on ABC in 2018.
Ben did not seem to have a severe relationship till he met Jess, with whom he went Instagram official in January 2019.
Ben and Jess initially deliberate to wed in 2020 however pushed again their nuptials to 2021 because of the coronavirus pandemic.
So far as his private objectives for the longer term go, Ben beforehand revealed in June 2020 that he’d like to begin a household inside a couple of years and possibly undertake a minimum of one little one.
However Ben has clarified he and Jessica — who has agreed to abstain from intercourse till marriage to make sure their first encounter shall be particular — will not be dwelling collectively of their new place till after the marriage.
Ever since they started courting in 2018, Ben and Jessica have been making a long-distance relationship work, with Ben being in Denver more often than not and Jessica dwelling in Nashville, TN, the place she attends esthetics college.
The couple’s relationship started in December 2018 when Ben apparently noticed Jess’ picture from a hockey game she went to along with her father and determined to direct message her on Instagram. After chatting on FaceTime, the pair met in individual and Ben requested Jess to be his girlfriend.
Elizabeth Kwiatkowski is Affiliate Editor of Actuality TV World and has been masking the truth TV style for greater than a decade.